As Mother's Day approaches I find myself more and more bitter. Not just because I am sick of seeing all the ads and they are pulling at my heart strings, but because I won't be celebrating with my mother or my grandmother. And even though they have been gone for 2 years, I just can't help but cry,
Every year we would go to my grandma's house and have lunch then spend the day with her. Typically she would cook even though we always told her not to. I miss that. I miss walking into the house and getting a warm hug and hearing how much they love me.
I can't help but be pissed off. I'm pissed off that my grandma was taken from me. I'm pissed off that I five months later I had to turnaround and plan my mom's funeral. It's just not fair to take them both from me in such short of time.
And believe me I know that life's not fair. Everyone has told me that, I grew up knowing that but I don't care. This is just wrong. It's wrong to do this to anyone. No one deserves pain like this, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I'm 27-years-old and I feel like I have lost the biggest part of who I am, and I have because these are the women that made me who I am.
So I sit here in a slump, ranting about things I know I can't fix. But I do hope that all of you who are lucky enough to still have your mother's and grandmother's make sure you let them know how special they are because you never know when it will be the last time you get to hear them tell you that they love you too.
Rest in peace grandma and mom, I will forver love and miss you.